WYLDE WOMAN
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WYLDE WOMAN | LIANA CORNELL
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WYLDE WOMAN | MEAGAN MOON
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"The Wylde Woman is the unapologetic essence of ancient beauty within every woman. Regardless of how she's been worn down, what society implants in her beliefs, she is unchanged, present, and accessible in every experience. Her greatest inspiration is her relationship with mama earth. She returns to the simple and raw intelligence of the plants when the weight she carries becomes too much. She gives without expectation, she receives in gratitude, and she works in humility and joy. The Wylde Woman is the memory of creation."
WYLDE WOMAN | ALANA BEALE
What are you most grateful for right now?
Mm, wow, so many things. I’m setting off on a 6-month adventure soon, so change has been a major theme present for me lately. I’ve been feeling immense gratitude for the ability to change, for the wonders and unknowns that change carries with it, and for the limitless possibilities that change holds.
I’m relearning a lot about our ability to make change easy, effortless, and fun, by releasing our habitual need to control. I’ve noticed we often become rigid in times of great change because we want to cling to what we can that will be the same and things we have come to identify with.
Whether it be a material item, a person, or a place, change challenges our conditioned sense of identity. It teaches us so much. As things change and the familiar begins to be stripped away, it opens up an incredible container to choose. I’ve never been afraid of change, some may even say I like it too much.
Through change we get to become the witness, we get to practice the art of surrender and trust. Change, whether perceived as good or bad (at the time) has always birthed me into a more expanded way of being, a wider perspective.
So yeah, change. I am damn grateful for it.
You recently started offering personal guidance sessions to assist others with inner alignment and self-empowerment. What inspired you to begin offering this service?
My inspiration and intention behind holding space for personal sessions flows from my own experiences of the power of expansive, authentic conversation.
I have felt the openings, shifts, and epiphanies that occur while being in this space, and it is my desire to expand the accessibility of this potent work beyond the borders of my personal life!
Do you have a favorite morning ritual?
Yes, yes, yes! I know we hear it everywhere, but rituals are golden, people!
I really value my morning time. It really helps to ground and clear my mind and energy for the day, especially because I’m not necessarily a morning person. I schedule out my day so that I have at least an hour of free time in the morning. This usually flows with my schedule, but even on days when I need to be out the door extra early, I give myself that hour to center.
My partner is a morning person and is usually up before me, so I wake up when he gets out of bed around 7 am. We kind of have this unspoken flow now that I’m thinking about it…whoever gets up first will make the coffee, and whoever gets to stay in bed longer has to make the bed. It works out nicely.
I usually take a quick hot shower first thing, just because it really helps to wake me up and I love feeling fresh for the day. Then we will both meditate, usually for around 10 minutes.
By that time the coffee is ready, and I read a book, journal, and pull some oracle cards while drinking my coffee on our deck, watching the sunlight creep over the mountains, melting the frosty dew from the leaves and listening to birds sing their morning songs (this includes a lot of roosters on Kauai!).
This mellow morning time is so potent to staring my day with a calm and clear mind.
What experience has been your greatest teacher?
Sounds cliché, but definitely having my heart broken, straight up. The sudden, blindsiding slash of a new and unwanted reality was the catalyst to a journey of returning wholly, authentically, and truly to myself in a way more intimate than I have ever known in this lifetime.
Everything the experience and the years of healing that followed brought so much to the surface for me to see and transform. The experience delivered me into a fullness and wholeness of being that I didn’t even realize was possible.
I became whole from the shattered pieces of my old identity, held together by the glue of love for myself. Even when this person came back, desiring the opportunity to try again, I was full enough to do what was aligned for me while still holding so much love and compassion for them.
This wholeness delivered me fully into a new perspective—an entirely empowered one.
What is one book you wish everyone would read?
Path to Empowerment by Barbara Marciniak. Even if you just buy it and it sits on your bookshelf, you’ll read that book at the perfect time for you.
What has been your most significant experience with manifestation?
My entire life on Kauai. I decided I was going to move here but had no idea how. I just continued to follow what felt uplifting and good in life, from the smallest decisions to the bigger ones, and here I am over a year later.
Everything fell into place along the way, seemingly effortless yet so precise to everything I had dreamt up for myself. A loving community, a sisterhood of glowing souls, dream houses, experiences, opportunities, and so much more. Every day I wake up humbled, honored, and filled with love for the life I have co-created for myself.
Since you live on Kauai and have access to both: beach or jungle?
Ah, how can you pick?! How about a jungle that lines the beach?
But, if I had to put them in order: beach first. Then a dip in a fresh, cold jungle pool!
How do you stay connected to your center of self?
I do my best to commit and prioritize thoughts and actions that uplift and support my highest self, which often means that I follow the things I know make me feel good.
Those things inspire thoughts and those thoughts inspire actions. It’s a cycle that is effortless while at the same time requires a presence and allowance for whatever is arising…which can sometimes be challenging. That sometimes means choosing the actions that I know will make myself feel good, even if I don’t want to do them in that moment.
Accepting myself as I am fully in each moment, and communicating to myself with thoughts that are compassionate and loving. Not being afraid to be honest with myself and recognizing which belief systems I am functioning from. Allowing them to shift when needed.
What are your biggest goals for this year?
Oh gosh, each month the list continues to excitedly grow!
To inspire others to step into their own self-empowerment. To be an example of the freedom that we have to create in this reality. To continue learning and asking questions. To continue to find balance. To travel to new places and continue to define what unlimited means for me. To go beyond my previous self-perceived limitations. To deepen my relationship with myself and therefore, spirit. To spend more time in a karma yoga program, serving others selflessly. To give back to Gaia and help others know that they can easily do the same. To stay open, always.
And to learn to play a pan drum and sound bowls!
What is your definition of a Wylde Woman?
An enchanting paradox. She’s got big goddess energy. A woman who is unafraid to be herself, whatever that means in each moment. A woman who is empowered. She takes graceful responsibility for everything she experiences, for she knows everything is of her own creation. She’s not afraid to be a beginner. She is unafraid to make mistakes. A woman who accepts herself as she is, and who does not question what she wants.
A wylde woman is any woman who is in alignment with her truth. I honor all you sisters, reading these words—for I know you are all magical, wylde, women.
AT HOME WITH OLESYA RULIN
What was it like growing up in Russia and moving to the US when you were just 8?
Why unbound?
There is magic in receiving a letter in the mail. I've had a penpal for 12 years now. His name is Scott Bourne and he's a silver fox, author, daddy, and husband to a goddess. We met in Paris when I was 19. He was my neighbour across the blvd, the other end of my tin-can telephone (true story we had a tin can telephone that connected us in Paris), the man who let me ride side saddle on his bike drunk from life and cheap French wine, he taught me how to love failure, to enjoy life in the grit, and embrace the erotic pleasure of being a woman.
Every 2 weeks or so I get a letter from him. It makes my day. I wanted my readers to receive love letters from me. Unbound letters. I want the pages to be folded up and mailed. Don't take a screenshot of the poem, don't feel bad about tearing the page, just unclip the one you like and have it. It's my present to you.
Do you have any more poetry books, unbound or bound in the works at the moment?
Yes I do. I'm working on editing a book of poems written by immigrants. It's a sensitive subject and I'm having a hard time opening up about it. It's important work and I know this is why I'm scared to write it.
As an actress and writer, do you ever see yourself looking to write or direct films?
I have a script that I wrote with Scott Bourne which I will make soon... I'd like to produce it. Directing is not for me but I love directors. I'm great at bringing people together but after that I just want to watch them play, have their creativity and color the canvas of a project.
What has been your biggest lesson?
Self Love. I learned it later in life. It's something you don't have the luxury to develop when you're in survival mode. It came to me once I could exhale a bit. I hope for everyone to learn this lesson as early on in life as possible.
If you could invite anyone over to dinner, who would it be and why?
My grandfather. He's my guardian angel and my best friend. We didn't have much time together in this lifetime but he had the biggest heart of any human I have ever met. I don't know his stories and I wish I did. He smelt like cigarettes, vodka, shoe polish, and leather. His smile lit up a room. He had mismatched colored eyes... one real and blue... the other glass and green. He was the silent type... but when he spoke or read me a book it was smooth and soft like silk.
What are your hopes for the rest of the year and what would you like to share with the world?
My hopes and what I'm working on for the next couple of months are to achieve more balance. To stand firm in my choices... choices that lead me closer to stability and security in myself. I guess those are the roots of self love :)
For the world? A collective exhale. A collective inhale. May we all hold the babies of our enemies ... see we are all the same... and maybe just maybe pause before making decisions.
What would be your advice to women?
Enjoy being a woman. You are a universe. You can create another human which makes you magic. Never doubt your creativity... you are the essence of creation. Stand in your power. Never apologize for it and yes you can be strong all while being soft and graceful.
What is your definition of a WYLDE WOMAN?
A Wylde woman is free. She laughs with her whole body. She loves the flesh her soul lives in. She knows how to care for other living beings, creatures, herself. She knows how to take life and make one. She is in tune with the seasons... she knows when to let go and when to receive. Her whiskers are always towards the wind... she senses what's coming. When she loves, the whole world tints rose colored. She is patient, she is kind, but just like nature she is fierce and stronger than any man made accomplishment.
WYLDE WOMAN | BIANCA SPARACINO
Sitting down and scrolling through instagram, you may have come across a writer under the name of Rainbow Salt. Pouring words out into the cosmos that dive deep into love and loss, joy and regret and empowerment, Bianca's words leave a trail of goosebumps across your skin and the gentle knowing that you are not alone. Encapsulating feelings and emotions, that pull on the heart strings of the reader, she is one of my favorite writers and there is always a sweet resonance, as if she had lived through my own experiences and penned them to paper.
What is the first book you ever read?
I truly can’t remember the first book I ever read. I was touted as the child with her nose in a book, so there were a lot of them while I was growing up. However, one of the books that has always stuck with me, one of the books that has deeply moved me even to this day, is Letters To Vera by Vladimir Nabokov. When I first read Nabokov’s letters to his wife, I was reminded that there were others out there with a heart like mine, I was reminded that there were people who lived life feeling intense love, and that they were receptive of that. Nabokov let it fuel his writing, and that inspired me to let what I felt do the same.
One of my favorite lines from the book “You came into my life — not as one comes to visit, but as one comes to a kingdom where all the rivers have been waiting for your reflection, all the roads, for your steps.”
Do you have a ritual for creativity and inspiration?
If there is one thing I have learned about creativity, and inspiration, it is that sometimes it blooms within you during the most unconventional times. I used to think that inspiration could be found through strict dedication to a routine. I thought that if I just woke up at X time, and wrote for Y hours, I would always have a beautiful page of words strung together afterwards. But throughout the years, I have found that art doesn’t work that way. It cannot be forced. You simply just have to be a channel for what is within you.
So, when it comes to getting the writing out of me, I always say this “If you want it to come, you must get out of your head, and into your body.” I remind myself that sometimes the best way to create is to stop forcing the creation, and to simply just embrace the flow that comes from being completely immersed in certain moments in time. I encourage myself to get out of my head, and into nature, or into a state of living that puts no pressure on the words, but rather, inspires the feeling. For me, music has always been a catalyst for this. To sit with a song that makes something deep within me ache, and bubble over with hope at the same time, is to shake inspiration from my bones. To jump into the ocean and lose track of time, is to shake inspiration from my bones. For others, flow could be achieved by painting, by singing, by running, etc. Whatever brings you back home to yourself — that is what I chase, and that is what always inspires the words.
Who do you look up to?
I look up to people who care. I look up to those who stay messy-hearted in a world that may not always be kind to them. I look up to people who are doing whatever they have to do to make it to tomorrow — the people who get up in the morning when they do not want to, the people who face what is scarred within them, the people who are working every single day to be gentle and soft with themselves when they have been given every reason to harden. I look up to the people who believe in something hopeful; people who feel everything intensely, and allow themselves to feel that way. I look up to people who shout love from rooftops, who share their hearts with the world. I look up to anyone who is fighting — fighting to be better, fighting to heal even when it hurts, fighting to believe with everything they have within themselves that they have purpose here, and that they belong here, and that they deserve to take up space. I know how much courage it takes to be that kind of person, how much courage it takes to keep going. I respect it so much.
What is your favorite quote or piece of poetry?
“In your place, if there is pain, nurse it. And if there is a flame, don’t snuff it out. Don’t be brutal with it. We rip out so much of ourselves to be cured of things faster, that we go bankrupt by the age of thirty and have less to offer each time we start with someone new. But to make yourself feel nothing so as not to feel anything ― what a waste! ” — André Aciman
What is your favorite piece you have ever written?
I think one of my favorites would be this one I wrote last year:
“This is me moving on. This is me accepting that sometimes beautiful things end. This is me understanding that there is nothing I can say, or do, to fix that. This is me coming to terms with the fact that sometimes leaving is an act of love, too. That sometimes you have to walk away from something soft and hauntingly real, that sometimes hearts don’t align. But this is me accepting that endings don’t have to be messy. This is me understanding how incredible it really is — that for a moment in time, in a world of billions, two strangers were in the right place, at the right time, and something transpired between them. This is my heart swelling with the thought — that at one point in time, we were the lucky ones. At one point in time, we beat the odds.”
What has been your biggest lesson?
When you confront the ache, when you feel it, when you befriend it, not just emotionally, but physically — when you deeply, deeply allow yourself to let it wash over you, it can no longer control you. It can only pass through you. I have learned that this is truly the most beautifully, difficult thing to do in life — to not be reactive to whatever it is you are going through, but rather, to be accepting, and understanding of it. To call it by its name, to see it for what it is, and to not hide it, or bury it, or sweep it under the rug, but to fully immerse yourself in it. Whatever it is, whether it is sadness, or hurt, or confusion, or loss, or something else, you cannot heal it if you do not acknowledge it. You cannot heal it if you do not feel it.
What is your definition of a WYLDE WOMAN?
To me, a WYLDE WOMAN is a woman who has cracked herself open. She bares her soul. She trusts her heart, she protects it and stands up for it, she shares it in everything she does. A WYLDE WOMAN understands that beauty requires contrast, she knows that life will always exist in two dimensions, that there will always be the hopeful moments, and there will always be the haunted moments, though she embraces them equally. She knows that they all grow her, she knows that they all round her out and weather her in ways that teach her how to be both soft and strong. A WYLDE WOMAN has a heart that is pinned to her sleeve. It beats outside of her body. It craves connection, intimacy, full blown immersion in life and human beings, and it stays that way no matter what she has been through. A WYLDE WOMAN knows that she deserves to take up space, she knows that she has purpose here. She is rooted. A WYLDE WOMAN is a woman who believes, with every inch of her patchwork heart, that she belongs to herself.
What would your advice be to young girls?
Remember — the Universe gave up celestial pieces of itself to craft you. So much had to conspire in order for you to be here. So be here. Be here, and be exactly who you want to be. Create the art you want to create. Speak your heart into existence. Bloom where you are planted. Dig and dig and dig into the core of your passion, and hold on to whatever ignites something inside of you, hold onto whatever stirs your soul. Get to know yourself, and own it; never apologize for the way your heart beats against your chest. Never apologize for taking up space. Just be here. Just be here and remember — you were bred from the crashing, and folding of the Universe into itself. Life may be messy, but you were born from a chaos that existed between stars. The same energy flows through you. Turn it into art. Turn it into strength. Turn it into beauty, like it turned itself into you.
WYLDE WOMAN | ELYSIA ANKETELL
What did you do today?
I had an epic self care day. Lots of lushness.
Over the past week I have been helping my friend who has been sick and I felt myself driving towards a burn out due to excessively focusing on supporting someone else, and not checking in with myself and my needs.
This has been a running theme for me recently learning ‘how can I continue to nourish myself, whilst also being supportive of others?’.
I have been learning to listen to all the really small signals my body sends, and it’s been such a big lesson of being connected with my body and allowing myself to have a constant dialogue with my body and check in regularly so there are no surprises.
What are some of your rituals for self-care, self-love?
I like to spend time in nature, if I’m feeling emotional or congested. I like to be barefoot on the earth.
I take time offline, and turn my phone off. I sing lots, dance, write music, or do water colour paintings.
I also spend a lot of time meditating with my hands on my body, feeling what is going on for me and reconnecting with myself, and my softest and most sensitive parts.
When I’m connected with my inner self, it’s really powerful to tune into that inner knowing and see what it is that I really want. Maybe it’s some more water, or a nap. Sometimes it’s just that simple. Other times it’s a bath, a drink, a bliss ball, to book a massage, or to make a call to a friend.
I also love to go to the ocean, or take a bath, or go to the Japanese Bath House in Melbourne, one of my all time favourite places.
I also love massaging my feet, it’s so grounding and through reflexology you can give love to your whole body just by touching your feet. I use some beautiful essential oils, generally frankincense, and lately I’ve been making my own body butter.
I guess when I’m really in need of self care the most important thing is for me to check in and feel into my intuition of how do I reconnect myself with me. A multitude of those methods works, but I don’t generally do all of these every day, but I tune in and see what is best for me in that moment.
Over the last 5 years you’ve had some health issues which resulted in weight gain. What was your experience when you first started gaining weight, and how have you come to terms with accepting who you are in your skin?
I had so much grief come up, it was really big for me. As my body changed, I spiralled into self-critique, guilt, shame, fear, and constant worry. Initially when I first started gaining weight, I was judging myself a lot. I had thoughts like “I’m neglecting myself” “ I’m not eating the right foods” even though I was, I was actually obsessive over my eating and exercise. My weight gain came about (I found out much later) due to a complex mix of hormonal, thyroid, adrenal and autoimmune issues.
One of my most critical inner thoughts was that I was judging myself as unhealthy, I felt like I didn’t look healthy (or what the societal definition of healthy is) so therefore I must not be, I must be doing something wrong.
Societally, many people believe you can tell the health of a person by their size but really you can’t just by looking at them. There are lots of slim people who have a lot of issues internally that aren’t so obvious just by looking at them, and there are a lot of larger people who have blood tests proving their metabolic health and are really vibrant and healthy.
Understanding this has helped me accept my own body too.
The turning point for me from body hate to body love was getting involved in movement/dance practices, as well as breathwork and energy work. When I started to feel and connect with my body in those ways I realised how disconnected I had been from myself, and started to understand why I ended up getting so sick.
I didn’t even realise I was disconnected from myself, I didn’t even know there was such thing as connection and disconnection, because we don’t get taught as children to stop and connect with our bodies. When I started doing movement and breath practices, I started being able to express and release emotions so that they didn’t get stored in my body.
It was when I started to feel what was happening in my body, instead of just seeing what I looked like, that I realised that my body is wonderful and resilient and I stopped hating it so much.
Often there is a societal assumption that larger people take less care of themselves. When you first started gaining weight, did you find that you had any stereotypically unhealthy habits, like overeating or not exercising?
I was actually doing the opposite of what people might think, and what doctors thought. I was on a really extreme 500 calorie per day diet (2000 calories daily is recommended for women). I was eating 100g of organic meat and 1 green vegetable in each meal and 3 small pieces of citrus fruit a day and that was it. I was obsessed with diets. I was a dieting expert, in fact I have since been informed that this level of obsession is an eating disorder, orthorexia, and that it is likely that I suffered from that from the time I was 19, and I’m currently working to resolve that to this day.
So in August 2013, when my health issues started to emerge, I weighed myself and I realised I had gained weight, and so I immediately put myself on my calorie restrictive diet and was eating 500 calories a day for 6 months. Defying my own, and many medical practitioner’s logic, I continued to gain weight, another 11kgs over that time.
I eventually was able to understand, through finding the right doctors, that my body went through the fight/flight response and was storing everything I ate because of the stress/cortisol response in the body. Over the entire time I have been working with and healing autoimmune disease, I have tried a range of things to stop the weight gain, I did Crossfit 4 times a week for about 8 months, and gym programs at different times over the 5 years period, and still gained a lot of weight. In total I gained about 35kg over 5 years. I was on a diet, then off a diet, then on the next diet, doing juice fasting, broth fasting, and all types of diets. It was concerning, and frustrating that nothing I did, no amount of strictness or diligence or hard work was making the weight gain stop.
By the time I had gained 20kg, I started to develop an emotional eating pattern, and was really depressed due to the situation with my health and my weight gain. I then had to heal that relationship with food and emotional eating. There’s definitely been a lot of cofactors. But initially no, I was so diligent (excessively so) with what I was consuming and yet I gained 11kg during that first 6 month period when I was heavily restricting all my food.
There is so much stigma around diet and weight and there is a dominant cultural belief that those with a larger body don’t care for themselves and are lazy or greedy. This is completely false. Fat phobia toward people who are larger bodied is currently the last remaining socially acceptable form of discrimination, it’s as if we have been trained that it’s okay to make commentary about others as long as it’s under the guise of ‘health concerns’.
It’s really exciting that there is a body positive movement, that is standing up and saying that everyone has a right to connect with and nurture their body the way that is right for them. It is such important work, encouraging all humans with many varying types of bodies to know that we deserve to have love and compassion for ourselves.
Do you get affected by any negative comments from people about your body?
Actually yes. I remember when you (Lucette) posted one of the images you took of me on your instagram and there was a person who commented about my health and that made a comment about large body size and health implications.
Initially a comment like that feels like a slap in the face in the moment. And that’s okay, to feel that emotion, and it’s important not to shun it, but also to encourage myself not to take it on board. I know that I am as healthy as I can be at the moment, all my blood tests are great, and I have healed autoimmune symptoms and adrenal fatigue, which is incredible in itself.
I’ve found that this type of comment only happens when it’s not on my page, but I have never had it on any of my social media. I do know other body positive babes on instagram that receive all sorts of yucky comments on their own pages, I think the more followers people get the less ‘personal’ it feels, and the more online haters feel like it’s okay to comment nasty things.
How are you nurturing your body now?
I am quite open about my desire to lose this 35kg that to me, is representative of an autoimmune issue that I no longer have. But I have no desire to do that by radical diets or self-punishing regimes.
I truly believe that balancing and restoring my body to what it used to be will come from keeping my energetic vibration high and just caring for myself and my own individual body, without specific diet and exercise regimes. I am really allowing myself to intuitively eat, at this point I eat mostly plant-based, mostly organic and low meat. I know and feel that pairing that with gentle movement and breath practices will be what allows my inner self to be reflected on the outside. I already feel that way and the people who know me also can see how vibrant and healthy I really am regardless of my dress size at this moment. I know that by keeping my vibration high and nurturing myself, without having to restrict any foods or put myself through any punishing work outs that my body will balance itself entirely.
I’ve been extensively researching the non diet approach and the Health at Any Size (HAES) approach and both encompasses intuitive eating, not restricting and not striving for the outcome of weight loss but striving instead for a way of being for each individual body. There is evidence that shows that those who follow this approach experience increased health outcomes, and their body returns to a neutral healthy base for their individual body.
I live my life day to day showing love to my body. I am still able to do all of the things I loved doing before, including some modelling recently (which I love), because attractiveness is not about anything but our vibration, and the love I have for myself and how I feel in my soul radiates.
One of the ways I show myself love in this exact body is by selecting beautiful clothes that suit me and enhance this body. I’m actually wearing The Air Top right now and I love it so much, not just because it looks good and feels good on but because it suits all body types.
I realise now how much time I spent in negative self talk about myself and my body, and It was such a time-waster. By no longer doing that I have so much more time and energy to put forward into finding little ways I can be part of changing the world and helping others.
I have started The Body Love Collective which is a body love and self love movement for women, based in Melbourne, Australia. I’ve just started running day workshops, which are going amazingly, and my first ever 6 week course is coming up in September.
Who would you have a tea party with?
The people that I surround myself with, I have quite a global network of women doing super incredible amazing things while staying really connected with themselves. Not to be cliche but your vibe definitely attracts your tribe and I have done so much work on myself and my self connection, and have met so many other like minded women and I just feel so supported by the sisterhood and it feels phenomenal. I love being connected with all these women who are all working so hard in their individual ways to impact the world, so I would love to have a tea party in every country with all my bad ass babes.
What is your definition of a Wylde Woman?
A deeply self connected, centred, grounded, nature connected and community-focused woman. With a solid internal foundation of self love and self nourishment and continuous connection with self and nature to fuel that. A woman that expresses and feels all of her emotions without shame and continues to do the work on themselves and reach new levels of self knowing and continue to deepen their connection to community, nature and the world around them.
WYLDE WOMAN | ALLIE MICHELLE
Do you have a ritual for creativity & inspiration?
I think of creativity as a separate entity that breathes and dances through us. I hear some people say things like, “I’m an engineer, I’m not creative.” Every human is inherently creative, but just like any other relationship we need to nurture the intimacy of our inspiration. The most profound practice I do as a writer is morning pages from The Artists Way. Every morning the first thing I do when I wake up is write three pages of absolutely anything that comes out of my mind. Maybe it was my dream. Maybe it’s brilliant. Or maybe I’m just sitting there writing about how exhausted I am and all of the little worries fumbling around my mind. What this does is it takes out the junk and fear in my mind so that creativity has space to come through me once more. My favorite poet IN-Q says, “if you’re not inspired by life you’re not paying attention.” You don’t even have to look to the outside world for inspiration. Just take an inhale and feel the miracle that exists in the very lungs you breathe.
What would be your advice to anyone who is struggling to stay present or looking to approach a more holistic lifestyle?
There is an abundance in knowledge and an absence in wisdom. You can look online and be flooded with information on chakras and ayahuasca until your brain hurts. The most important thing is to spend time with yourself. Sink into your bodies wisdom and marinate in your own energy. Enjoy the silence and stillness of your own being until you can hear that inner voice that tells you what you need. Sometimes it’s a whisper or a nudge, sometimes it’s a gut feeling. Trust it. Listen to that. We often look for an external crystal ball to give us direction in life, but part of the magic of being human is to learn to surrender to the mystery. Don’t be so hard on yourself. Life is constantly giving you the exact situation you need for your highest growth and learning. If you miss a moment, it will circle back until you catch it. Remember the magic is in your breath.
Who do you look up to?
There are about a million authors and spiritual leaders I could name like Hafiz, Paulo Coelho, Rupi Kaur, Oprah, Matt Kahn, Marianne Williamson, etc. The most honest answer is that I’m inspired by the teachers of my everyday life. My friend Dakota just got up and shared his poetry in front of all of Hollywood. He inspires me to use my voice. My sister Alexis who has been through so much darkness and alchemized it to fuel the fire of her purpose. She shows me life will never send you something you cannot handle, so don’t let it victimize you. We place our heroes on a pedestal, but I think if you can love your own shadow you can be fully accepting of the humanness in other people. And that starts at the dinner table.
What is your favourite quote or piece of poetry?
It is very hard for me to choose between these two. The first quote is from a modern poet, IN-Q that I mentioned earlier who blends his work with his background in hip hop.
“We are human beings first
Beyond the boundaries
In the dirt so how
We treat each other
Should be how we
Measure our worth”
The second one is from the ancient Sufi poet Hafiz.
“God
Blooms
From the shoulder
Of the
Elephant
Who becomes
Courteous
To
The
Ant.”
What is your favourite piece you have ever written?
My answer is always the most recent piece I have written because it is the closest reflection to where I am right now….
Magnets
There is a pull in each of us to connect
A craving to feel seen and loved
Yet we’re terrified if we’re seen we won’t be loved
We silently cry out to each person
A plea that they will see beneath our layers
And remind us what has been true all along:
That love is here and never left
That we are perfect in all our mess
That our wounds will heal when we honestly confess
The insecurities that plague us have always been illusions
All the love you can offer me
Already exists within my heart
And it is within my heart that love should start
What has been your biggest lesson?
How much time do you have? I find our lessons are constantly circling back to us wearing different faces until we learn them. I think my biggest one is learning to choose my own heart. I have a massive fear of hurting other people. I am a recovering people pleaser. It’s part of why social media has helped me grow as a person so much. When you have a lot of people with their own lenses and projections that they’re looking at you through, you’re going to ruffle some feathers. And the truth is if everyone approves of you, what do you stand for? Where is the growth in that? So I think there is a balance of having an open heart and coming from a place of love, but also a strong spine and knowing what truth I stand in.
If you could have a tea ceremony with any 5 guests who would you invite and why?
Alan Watts. I’m very fascinated by people that are sensitive and feel the duality of the world, yet still manage to maintain this sense of child-like lightheartedness. I often become very serious and must remind myself to be playful and dance with life whether it’s a shadow dance or a celebration. Paulo Coelho is another one. He wrote the alchemist in two short weeks and I’m inspired by his ability to get out of his own way and allow magic to pour through him. My next one would be Oprah. She came from one of the darkest places a human being can come from with her childhood, and her intention of service has sparked a massive spiritual movement reflecting the potential all of us have within us. Bob Marley is another one. My friend explained to me that the amount of beats per minute of his music was different from most songs in that it managed to align his audiences heartbeats to the same rhythm. It really brings on a whole new meaning of “one love.” JK Rowling is my last one. Regardless of whether or not Harry Potter resonates with you, she managed to create an entire world with deeply complex characters that expand the reader’s capacity for empathy. She reflects to me just how far the imagination can go when we dissolve our limitations of it.
What are your hopes for the rest of the year and what would you like to share with the world?
I hope I learn to trust. Trust my inner voice. Trust the future. Surrender. I would like to share more of my imagination with the world, and the lessons that I’m learning. I hope I learn to be more patient with myself. I always catch myself trying to be 40 at 21. Honestly I think what I do will always shift and change because what I do is not who I am. But when I look back on my life what is most important to me is that I shared the truest, most unconditional love possible, that I was of service through my creative expression, and that I danced through this beautiful mess of a game called life like rafiki from the Lion King.
What is your definition of a WYLDE WOMAN?
I wrote a poem for this after being inspired by the owner herself and I think it explains it more than anything else I could say.
What is the power of a wild woman?
Is it in the curve of her hips,
Or the knowing smile on her lips?
Is it in the strength of her thighs,
Or the sparkle in her eye?
Is it in the history her back wears,
Or the messiness of her hair?
Is it in her intuition and sensitivity,
Or the way her emotions run like wild horses,
Teaching us to speak the illogical language of creativity?
Is it in how deep her love runs,
Or the way she and the Moon cycles are one?
Every month she experiences death
Shedding all the shadow her body has kept
The power of a wild woman
Runs in the veins of a woman who remembers her worth
Who recognizes her body is a portal through which life makes birth
The power of a wild woman
Breathes through the woman who does not spend her sacred energy
Apologizing for who she is
But instead reminds other women of their own wild nature
Through taking care of herself she can genuinely give
She does not soften her voice
Or suppress what is truly her hearts choice
The more I come to know the wild woman
The less I can explain her through words
So perhaps if you close your eyes
And withdraw from the world outside
You’ll feel her as a a part of you
And realize she’s been there all along
What would be your advice to girls?
Live your life sincerely, but don’t take it so seriously. If you’re ever uncertain, put one hand on your heart, and one hand on your belly. Take three deep breaths and ask yourself, “is this what my most empowered, loving self would do?” Sometimes that means taking a risk. Sometimes that means saying no. But trust that voice. And never compare. If you start looking at other women and it’s triggering your insecurities instead of inspiring you, it means it’s time to come home to yourself for a while. There is only one you with your specific arrangement of molecules in the entire universe. Everyone is special, but whether they know it or not is where their power dwells. Do not waste a moment of your life trying to dance to someone else’s tune. Your song is so unique and beautiful. And you’re never going to be anyone else. So build a home within the foundations of your own skin because this world heals when we stop reacting from our wounds and start acting from our true divine nature.
WYLDE WOMAN | INDIGO SPARKE
In the last 24 hours what has inspired you?
An endless reserve of oceanic love from my close friends and family. A phone call. Hope. The jungle. My guitar. Photographs of a recent time. Driving. Wine. Music. Always. Music.
As a singer, which of your shows has pulled on your heart and stands as your favorite/s?
Ooo that's hard. I think they all offer up precious little gifts in different ways so it's hard to compare them, but more recently I did a few little shows in LA and they were really cool. I did a gig in Topanga on my birthday actually and that was so lovely. So many beautiful people. It's always about the energy as a whole at the end of the day.
I also just did a gig with the Babe Rainbow boys and that was just a ridiculously fun magic rainbow joyride. I couldn't wipe the smile off my face for hours. Many giggles were had.
You can’t sit still, you’re always somewhere in the world. What are some lessons from the road?
It's so hard to stay still! I get itchy feet.
The biggest recurring lesson I've learnt so far is, let it all go and breathe...
You know, I always make these intricate plans in my mind of what I'm going to do, or see or how an experience will teach me, help me grow, love, write etc, but without fail, EVERY time, things change.
I truly believe there is some divine plan, and the lessons always come in the unknown.
It can be incredibly painful and sometimes you just want to run and hide, but like one of my best friends says, imagine how boring life would be if you knew what was going to happen all the time!
I think with the breathing comes surrender, it's like learning a cosmic universal dance of intention and listening, trust, truth and kindness.
But fuck! It's not easy!
I try to remember that things always seem more intense in the moment of experiencing. In memory everything feels golden and that's where the joy and clarity of 'why' is.
It's like all of life really!
It's easier to connect the dots when looking back... but not to much!
Then there is the return home to self.
As much as I like moving around and feeling everything it's when I'm still that everything makes sense and comes together with poignant reason and resonance.
The best thing about being a musician, and the worst?
I think for me the best thing is having found a way to express my deep and very raw sense of experiencing and feeling.
Not really sure what I'd do without it!
The worst is an interesting thing, because it's all wrapped up with the best. It's this fluid back and forth, one informs the other.
I read something Angel Olsen had shared the other day and part of that really hit home for me.
"Who knew the business of wanting to be special would get so complicated.
That a dream would turn into livelihood, that it would be a constant fight to keep real, when people, maybe unknowingly, try to make you embrace the fake.
Musicians - we're all very different, yes. But I do think we share some truths - we're vagabonds, we're survivalists, we see people and systems all over the world. We turn inward, we lose touch with friends, it's painful and it's informative, at times exhausting to process. It's not only playing music.
But I'm grateful for it. Grateful for the time others have devoted to this weird work of mine. Grateful to see how time passing has brought me closer to those I love. Thanks for sharin and keeping real when you can."
I really love this. It's so spot on.
There is no denying your incredible talent for writing as well as singing. What’s one place in the world where you can’t stop those creative juices from flowing?
Ahhh Bali...
That place cracks me wide open.
I have lived there on and off for a couple years and whenever I am there I cannot stop writing. Not songs in particular, more musings on life and love and the fragility of the human condition.
The Balinese are in a continuous state of deep prayer and reverence for the ancestors and the land, it's automatically a melting pot of creativity.
The magnitude of the nature also holds me in such a primal and unfiltered space.
Similar to India. The land before time, the place where everything is created and destroyed. The place where life and death merge seamlessly and where a greater consciousness is birthed.
Something about it almost works as an opiate for me, it allows me a passage to a timeless space where I can float around in between realms dreaming.
I bet you’re an old soul. Right now, what’s the soundtrack to your life?
Oh wow. So so much so many many.
It's so funny because I always feel like I'm watching the movie of my life which has already been and gone.
I often feel like I curate my own Terrence Malick style films with poetry and narration constantly running in my mind, and then I choose the soundtrack...
So... most commonly featured at the moment would be;
Mazzy Star
Big Thief
Bobby Mcferrin - ('circle songs')
Lots of Indian Raga
Dead Can Dance
Pink Floyd
Jeff Buckley
Julia Jacklin
Beck
Black Sabbath
Ray LaMontagne
Beach House
Van Morrisons Astral Weeks
Joni Mitchell
Jonathan Wilson
ahhh I could go on... but these are on a cycling playlist right now
Oh and Brian Eno and Andrew Bird
Oh oh oh and ALWAYS Radiohead!
Who is your favorite/s musician and which songs?
Haha maybe just see above.
Hmmm couple of my favourite songs right now...
Baby's Arms - Kurt Vile
Hot Dreams - Timber Timbre
Curiosity - Reverend Baron
Pretty Things - Big Thief
Party - Aldous Harding
All Yours - Widowspeak
Hollywood Forever Cemetery Sings - Father John Misty
How would you define a WYLDE Woman?
I think a WYLDE Woman is a woman that trusts herself. A woman that knows her boundaries, yet pushes the limits. A woman that can make fearless decisions with pure inspired intentions and graceful actions. A woman who speaks and shares herself honestly and authentically. A woman who is for women, and who is for men equally, a woman who realises that both feminine and masculine live harmoniously within and inform different aspects of our personalities.
A woman who explores sexuality as a free and fluid thing without guilt or shame but with mindful conjuring.
A WYLDE woman is without form, ever changing, a muse, a mother, a sister, lover, friend. A reflection of nature, vast and chaotic, wildly beautiful, running rivers, oceans, storms, clouds and blue sky.
Above all she is a woman who can take responsibility for herself. There is real strength that comes from being vulnerable enough to look at yourself. A WYLDE woman is a witch, a witch women, who is in a deep and holy whole commune with the Universe and Nature, the Sun, the Stars and the Moon.
What good little life lesson can you bless us with?
Life lesson, there's a million of those!
As cliche as it sounds, to keep on choosing to contribute love and positivity to this world. It's a major humbling lesson.
Some days this world is so fucking backward and it drags us from our core essence of what is important.
Be authentic, be compassionate, be graceful, be clear with your words and try not to judge. The universe or god or whatever you want to call it did not create life for us to judge, that part is beyond us, it just is, nameless, and perfect in its multifaceted reflections.
Collaborate with anyone in the world. Who would it be and what great things would you create?
Oh right now, if I could have Beck, Ray LaMontagne, Andrew Bird, Hope Sandoval, Jonathan Wilson, Neil Young, Joni Mitchell and Thom Yorke in a room with me, I'd be the happiest girl to ever live, ever.
It'd be the dreamiest mash up of deep mystical melancholic psychedelic profound hymnal bliss, soaring bells and rustic rouge tones, heart beats and witchy incantations. With a little unexpected quirky neuroses and a free ride to the astral planes along the golden desert highways in the peachy skies. Ha!
You’re going places - spiritually, physically and emotionally. Where will you be and what can we expect from you in the future?
Who knows where I'll be emotionally and spiritually! That part I wish I knew a little more, it might save me some sleepless nights and a whole bunch of burning questions. It's like Christmas with those sides of myself, never know what's gonna happen, whose gonna show up, what presents you'll get, if any, snow or shine, drunk and in love or lonely and hating the world.
I hope to be in India or Bali again before the end of the year, need a little soul sweep revival.
Possibly the US again! Who knows!
Gosh, well, I guess you can just expect more music! Hopefully some beautiful visual narratives to go along with it.
And maybe a book! I've been collating all the poems and musings on love I've ever written, it's currently titled, 'Sketches of Love and Letters I Never Sent'
Hopefully soon.
Thoughts on being a woman in the art world - Is it a force for good or evil?
It can only be a good thing I think! For sure!